Been a little while since my last post so thought I would just drop down a few words with the latest.....the last few months, despite the challenges we have all been facing with the lockdown have largely been 'incident free' cancer wise at least for me. It has been the first time in a little while where I really got to a point where I wasn't thinking too much about it. Of course, in the back of my mind, I knew that there was a blood test coming up, but rather naively I think I had it in my head that this would all be ok, and the cancer wouldn't have progressed any further particularly as I still feel good physically. I have totally recovered from the surgeries last year and running 50-60k a week.
Anyway, this morning I got the results from that blood test which was take a week or so ago and unfortunately have been reminded in a flash that the cancer is still very much there and now sadly growing. It was a phone appointment (given Covid rules) with Alice and short with a good clear idea of next steps. With the CEA marker now up to around 95, its now off to get a CT scan and work out where it is growing / progressing. The good news is that this has been booked soon (this Friday 19th). I will then have a follow up appointment on the 29th to get the results. At that point it will either be (a) to start Chemo or (b) not to start chemo. I think ideally Alice would like to avoid starting it given the fact that once it starts it will likely be a long course (she mentioned something around 12-18 months). I always knew this would happen at some point but can't deny I was hoping that I may be able to ride this out for a little longer.
I think it's fair to say that whatever the outcome of the scan, chemo will have started by the end of the year. Having now been brought back to earth with a bang, this news I must admit has floored me a bit as it reminds me that those family events in the future are likely to not be something that I will be there for...the boys getting married etc. In a few days once I have let this news properly set in, I know I will be ok and remain determined to continue living for today....at the end of the day this is something that I know is key to getting through it. I have just had a run and already feel a lot better!:-)....but seriously I do think that provided I continue to feel as I do, which honestly is still strong, then even with chemo potentially starting I can keep going and importantly continuing to enjoy all the precious moments with family and friends that I am so lucky to have at the moment.
So for now, it's a simple plan in my mind.....to continue to enjoy the time I have left without looking too far in the future...all about living for today....now come on Boris let us out for some fun! 😉🙂